Beater
You move your arm a particular way
and feel the slice of age in your shoulder
that you hyperextended in a fit of ambition
Saturday at the gym,
And that isn’t even your biggest problem these days,
no need to count the ways in which your body
is failing you because everyday is a new betrayal.
The tooth that needed to be pulled, so that,
now, eating popcorn hovers somewhere between
unpleasant surprise and disappointment,
Or the bulging disc that ensures that reaching
down to pick up the cat bowl or crossing your
leg to tie your shoe is a cruel test of tentative
flexibility in a minefield of aches,
Or the inexplicable thinning of the skin
on the surface of your nose, which often results
in serious bleeding from just an errant scratch,
real bleeding in the middle of the day,
in the middle of your class, and now you have to
spend the next 15 minutes dabbing at your
honker with a Kleenex,
And let’s not forget the pills, organized as they are
into their daily compartments. This one to tame the
prostate, this one to clear the veins, another
to keep the food from burning as it travels
through the body, and another to tamp down
the breathless pounding of anxiety. Actually,
8 pills and 5 supplements in all,
And what can you do?
The machine has been running continuously
for 58 years. Of course the gears are slipping.
Of course the hardware is stuck or chipped
or missing or hidden in its greasy patina.
What can you do?
The pit stops on the way can only replace the fuel
And fill the tires that will push you smoking and sputtering to the horizon.